hollow bones

I should be doing revision for common tests next week, or doing up my FMM journal. But I'm just too bloody tired to do any of them..........
so I guess I should sleep soon :-) LOL this blog post is a rather pointless one, I'm just here to say:

Goodnight everyone <3

ps: to say the truth, I'm actually a little unsure about everything recently....... But I hope everything will work out really soon, and the clouds shrouding my mind would eventually go away :-)

xoxo.

you gotta get up and try.

Absolutely in love with jayesslee's recent cover of pink's "try"
and omg Janice is getting married! <3 such a fairytale ending for the both of them <3
if only I could be like them, talented and living in bliss........
.
.
.
instead, I'm stuck in school waiting to collect donations for my fundraising LOL.
ciao.

begin again

it has been such a horrible week that I am appalled at how sucky a week can actually get.
damn, please let the past week be the worst week of 2012, and let me enjoy the remaining......... 1 month and 5 days of 2012 :-(
sigh..............
been feeling nothing but blue recently. It seems like nothing's going my way, nothing's making me happy and everyone seems to wanna see me fall flat on my face.
maybe I'm thinking too much, maybe it's karma for sinning too much, or maybe it just means that I am downright unlucky. But I just wish this week would be really wonderful and wash away all the blue that the past week has brought to me.
seeing everyone else enjoying that particular week makes me wanna wallow in self-pity even more.
alright, good night to all and let's keep our fingers crossed that the week would be a good one :-)

life is a bitch

this is a ranting post, so if you're in a really bad mood, just close the browser cause it'll just make you really annoyed. Or if you're feeling at the top of the world please don't let me rain on your parade. Close the browser as well.
.
.
.
so, let's start.

I really hate this current week. It used to be the highlight of november. I swear. All my friends knew that I was so excited for BBSG overnight stay at Loft from saturday to sunday. And I was supposed to meet lynette & casia for our FMM journal and we were going to this german exhibition that seemed really fun. Friday was supposed to be for catching up with huixin & polly, eat loads of good food & destress. But now......... everything's gone into flames.

Frankly, I don't blame or feel annoyed AT ALL for the reason that led me to my non-existing weekend, cause I am actually rather sad about it. BUT what I am annoyed would have to be the fact that life absolutely hates me so much that they choose to wreck the highlight of the month with something that I absolutely cannot escape from. Like, seriously. I think I must have been a sinner in my past life to be so downright unlucky.

I used to believe in luck once upon a time. But since I grew up, I saw how unlucky I really was, and how things just doesn't seem to go my way. So, I gave up wishing that lady luck would shine on me, and tried my best to rely on myself unlike some lucky assholes that have plentiful of luck to spare. However, I just had to rant a little this time.

WHY THE HELL DOES LIFE MAKE THINGS SO SUCKY FOR ME? WHY WRECK THE WEEKEND THAT I HAVE BEEN LOOKING FORWARD TO THE MOST? Why not last week, or maybe next week? Why now?
Maybe life loves to play a trick on us. I've had enough bad luck and "co-incidences" to last me for a lifetime. Please spare me the pain and annoyance having to miss out something that I have been so hyped up about. It isn't fair at all to make me harbour hopes that the weekend would be amazing, give me a sucky start of the week while still holding onto the weekends as a float to get through this horrible week, and when I've finally reached the shore, woke me up and made me realize that it was nothing but a dream. I was still stuck in the middle of the ocean. Effing hell, I am so damn pissed.

And to see everyone else having fun, that makes me even more annoyed. So annoyed that I wanna cry and kick up a huge fuss, but people would just think that I am insensible, foolish, stupid and hopeless. I am only a teenager, I long to enjoy my teenage years as well.

Life doesn't just give me lemons, it showers me with lemons and pelts me till I find myself feeling like dying but hanging by a thread. That, sucks, so, badly.

sigh. I really wanted to rant somewhere, and this blogpost did not make me feel better. but at least I don't feel like I'm keeping everything to myself.

alright, long weekend ahead. hahaha FML FML FML FML FML I HATE LIFE.
bye. and if you're enjoying your weekend, go away and stop making me see how lousy my life is treating me. shoo. okay fml bye.

the man who can't be moved

so I realised that I should start uploading my photos to blogger instead of getting them from FB, cause they disappear after some time!
ugh........ so tedious. But oh well, at least it'll control my photo spam. :-)

E-learning week is turning out to be such a bore......... sigh. I'm actually looking forward to the weekends cause I'm gonna meet jingwen for dinner on thursday (tentative, but I really wanna meet her!!!), huixin & polly to use up that Handburger Groupon on friday, plus shopping if we have time. Then saturday & sunday would be bbsg collection, packing & delivery! teehee can't wait to stay over at the Loft <3

staring at my chipped nail and I feel so frustrated. ugh actualyl I've been feeling a little grumpy today...... Must be the weather.



Taylor sounds lovely in this video! She really can sing live <33333333333
.
.
.
and I just realised that I tend to snack when I'm at home. damn can I just tape my mouth??? :'(
.
.
.
I realised that life can be a bitch sometimes. You never know who's true to you, and who's not. Sometimes, life makes you feel like you're on the top of the world, and in another minute it can come crashing down. I've long gave up hope that lady luck would shine on me, since I've always been unlucky.......
lesigh. I just feel so damn sian today.

Please let tomorrow be a better day!

the only plus point of today would be: yay new blog background & format! no more loading of photos hahaha!
alright, gonna go emo in a corner or do something that'll make me happy now. ciao xoxo.

cross my heart and hope to die

so....... CTs are starting in abt 2 week's time and I have not started revising anything......
SO FREAKING STRESSED :'( I have to start studying ASAP, damnit.
and I think that CCA's really taking up so much of my time. I actually regret going for OSLT cause it's just nothing but a HUGE burden.
sigh...... I just hope I can survive the weeks to come :-(










.
.
.
actually sometimes I get really confused about my feelings and emotions, I can get so damn moody in like, 3 seconds. What is wrong with me........
argh the stress is making me real down, and I hate all this shit ugh!!!!! Can't I just have a really happy and relaxed life??? :-(((((((
and I have cca tomorrow till 5 I think. ugh damnit I am so not free for cca, especially oslt meeting. it's kinda making me feel like it's a burden.
oh well, $$$ paid, shall just make the best out of it.
and fml, youtube is not making me feel better by lagging like hell.
JERFNERIFNERJFNERIKSDMKLFJKNMDFK WHY IS EVERYONE AND EVERYTHING NOT TURNING OUT THE WAY I WANT IT TO BE........
hmph, it's a tiring and sian night.
ciao, let's hope I don't burst into flames.

crimson red

so........ it's 1:39 right now and I am not sleepy at all.......
well, I bet everyone else would be doing tutorials or at least something conducive if they aren't asleep.... Not for me though.
I painted my nails crimson red and I LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVE the color. just bought new bottles of cheap nail polish and so far I love it <3

okay, since I'm not doing anything at all, I should just go to bed.......
ugh sian, was actually looking forward to this Saturday but...... I knew that nothing would go my way :-( oh well.
school tomorrow; what a bore. sigh I suddenly feel like I'm lagging behind. really need to start studying. OH GOD PLEASE LET ME HAVE SOME MOTIVATION. :'(
goodnight & goodmorning, let's hope we'll have a lovely day ahead :-)