suddenly woke up with this really strong........... feel to write something. So here am I.
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My sister and I sleep in the same room, with her sleeping on the bed while I sleep on a mattress on the floor. There used to be a huge space under her bed frame, and somehow I suddenly thought of that space as I woke up just now. That space may seem insignificant but it actually held memories for me which I would cherish.
I remember how I used to roll under my sis bed during hot nights, lying on the cool marble floor and falling asleep under her bed, how I hid from my sister when she was angry with me, how I poked my sister from under her bed through the mattress, how I used to cry in that space with my face buried in my pillow and body curled up in my blanket. I also used to lie in that little space and do nothing but just think about the future. How I would be in 10, 20, 30, 40, 50 years. Would I die in a freak accident? Would I get married and have children? Would I be alone and never loved? Would I graduate from poly and would I be working wherever I want? All these questions seemed endless in my mind and it was in this insignificant space under my sister's bed where I actually found comfort. The marble floor may be hard, but somehow it felt just nice for me. It may be dusty but I actually thought that the dusty smell made me feel more at home and at ease.
Now that my sister's bed frame has finally broke from years of endless torturing, that space has been replaced by a new bed. I find it weird that I actually remembered that space but this shows that every little thing matters. What may seem insignificant to the world may just hold that one special memory to someone else. No matter how alone and abandoned you may feel, like you're the only one standing in the whole wide world, just know that there must be that someone who loves you and cherishes you.
so yeah, I miss that little space under my sister's old bed but it'll never be there again. So cherish every little thing and every single person around you, for they may be gone before you know it. And time can never be rewound, once they're gone, you'll never get them back again.
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xoxo.
Sunday, 17 March 2013
Monday, 11 March 2013
till my heart stops beating
Back from advancers camp and my body's aching like crazy. Seriously I have got to start working out.
But anyway, the camp was not too bad :-)
kinda forgot the details of the camp, so here's all that I remember:
D1:
right foot was hurting so le guy came over to my house to bring me to school! so nice of him right teehee <3
(LOL I actually forgot what we had for breakfast so I just smsed him to remind me LOL)
cooked maggie mee for breakfast and we headed out after eating and slacking for a bit. He seriously thought I was seriously injured cause he didn't want me to carry anything LOL luckily I snatched some things back :D
bused to school and went for prep! it was kinda fun teehee.
Met him and we went to check in to loft with laava and trenna :-) tapao-ed food (yay he queued for ikea meatballs!) and ate dinner in loft.
then.............. we had our first activity which was planning of cca events. boring.
then had to run down for something etc etc
played tug of war and we experienced being pulled like a puppet by the opposing team HAHAHA that was funny yet annoying.
and the night was quite un-memorable so I shall not try to remember it haha.
Oh but xueying & I sneaked out to meet him at night just to chat hahaha.
D2:
played this super tiring relay game whereby we had to run around an area and pass things.
it was easy at first but........ they started passing us heavy things like hard plastic chairs, 8 waterbottles (including 1.5litres) etc. That was totally strenuous yet super fun! I was like the second last to be eliminated lol so proud of myself.
"amazing race" was not memorable, dinner was pizza and I ate a slice, then xueying and I ate cup noodles LOL.
OH and.......... through this camp everyone found out abt le guy and me lor. we tried to be discrete but......... the first night whereby we sneaked out was the final straw I guess. Tho I would have no idea why they wouldn't think about the fact that xueying was with us........ DAMN. I mean I obviously don't mind for friends to know but NOT THE MENTORS AND ETC. that would be so awkward and we can forget about being grouped tgt I swear.
UGH.
oh............ we received this certificate for being exco/leaders and that was nice :-)
But seriously, is "shit" a vulgarity? thats what they claimed in my cca. LAME, HONEY.
D3:
thought that this day would be real relaxing but I wanted to die cause we hiked on bukit timah hill while carrying all our backpacks and shit. OMG SO TIRING I WANTED TO DIE, ESPECIALLY THAT FLIGHT OF KILLER STAIRS.
and I fell before hiking lor, damn I am clumsy. But I liked the wound!
oh but the morning was lovely. woke up at 5.50 and met le guy for sunrise. didn't catch it in the end but oh well, still had a good time just walking and chatting :-) <3
went home after hiking and lunched, walked around, etc.
actually you know what, I'm too lazy to blog so ciao.
Tuesday, 5 March 2013
month
so time flies. It's been officially a month, so happy monthsary to us! <333333333333333
okay bye I need to bathe now HAHAHAHAHAHA.
xoxo <3
okay bye I need to bathe now HAHAHAHAHAHA.
xoxo <3
Monday, 4 March 2013
Thursday, 28 February 2013
Maoris Chalet!
I'm back from MAORIS CHALET yo :-)
And it was unexpectedly alright hehehe I was so damn worried it'll suck like hell at first!
was late for chalet cause I went for my first ever formal interview at MBS, dont think I'll get the job but it's a good experience teehee! And loads of love to xueying for accompanying me <3
Oh in the morning le guy also came to my house, we just chilled, ate wanton mee and talked but it just felt nice <3
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anyway, met Charlynn at Paya Lebar and we trained & bused to Aloha Loyang! damn, I'm too used to calling her Liying it took me awhile to call her Charlynn but still, I tried.
Reached the bungalow at around 8 and chatted with Sheena, who was the only one there. The rest all went to the beach for some games. When they came back, we were supposed to go with our groups and I was tres awkward when I first met my group cause they've already met and spent time with each other for like half the day but I was a newcomer. Damn worried and they didn't even seem to like me at first :-(
Oh well, tried my best to talk to the girls and it was alright after that! :-)
uhhhhhhh we had this activity of going into another bungalow to pick up ice cream sticks and that's all I could remember of the day since it was kinda unmemorable apart from the horrible awkwardness. Yeah but I was so relieved that we became un-awkward LOL.
I mean, we had to spend 2 more days together so............. no awkwardness would definitely help.
Then we all went back to the room and slept :-) shared the bed with Grace & Gwen while the guys slept on the floor HAHAHA poor things they were so envious that we could sleep on the bed. Frankly speaking I hated the bed.......
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The next day, we woke up to PT and it ain't bad. I actually liked the feeling of exercising omg have I changed for the better? I shall try jogging and going to the gym real soon!
we had breakfast of bread and it was supposed to be the "worst" breakfast (the game results determined our breakfast) but we all thought it was much nicer than the others LOL.
Then we went out for amazing race. which was just travelling all around pasir ris. It was kinda boring sometimes cause it was just nearby LOL but oh well, still fun :-)
Tbh I don't really remember much so I shall skip the activities! Just know that I had $4 korean chicken hotplate and also went fishing and I'll not go again, the fishes looked like they were in agony omg. And......... the guys did a real funny harlem shake for our video and uhhhhhhhh Grace and I sucked at bowling.
LOL. And I like face paint HAHAHA
went back to the chalet to slack then we had BBQ which I think I ate half a hotdog, one corn cob and 3 spoonfuls of fried rice. Chalets and camps are the best time for me to diet lol.
But I'm real glad that I could just meet Syaza (GG subgroup 5!) since we haven't seen each other for AGES.
<3333333 with SYAZA AND CHARLYNN they're so pretty omg. unfair.
and I'm also real glad to meet Gwen and Grace they are so pretty
omg I am extremely jealous but they're so sweet as well omg life ain't fair at all.
oh well! Bathed and had a long briefing about BAOC prep. Damnit it takes up too much of our time I ain't sure if I can make it for every session...... and the "important dates" are......... extremely unfortunate for me cause 2 of them falls on the day before my birthday and my birthday itself. Like seriously :-( sighpie.
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OH but ytd was real fun cause Charlynn and I actually spent the night tgt just...... sleeping. SERIOUSLY everyone was up and we were in our room and we said tat we were just resting for like 15 mins but you know, we obviously fell asleep...... (Losers sia seriously HAHAHA) but it was such a good sleep <333
LOL I remember that a group of guys came into the room to ask for the bungalow keys (was it Bryan and Lester omg I have no idea but it was damn embarrassing cause we were sleeping like pigs......) and Charlynn slept on the keys so....... I literally rolled her over and grabbed the keys HAHAHAHA OMG.
then I also remember how she tossed and turned so damn loudly omg.
and also that this guy came into the room and slept on the floor and finally I identified him as Jiajun LOL seriously everyone just went MIA it's a miracle that he came back.
oh well.....
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Third day has been nothing but a bore cause we just woke up, packed, took photos and went home.
Everyone left at different timings so yeah.
and I crashed after eating loads of rubbish for like.......... 4 hours.
okay the end.
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gg out for brunch with le bff (wxy) and then imma go for another interview (DONT JUDGE ME I AM INDEED DESPERATE HAHA) andddddddd gonna meet le guy for dinner and desserts I think teehee.
Oh well, goodbye everyone enjoy the holidays they are gonna fly past in the blink of an eye,
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OH BTW. went out with polly and huixin but I'll blog like ltr or later cause Im lazy yo.
xoxo.
And it was unexpectedly alright hehehe I was so damn worried it'll suck like hell at first!
was late for chalet cause I went for my first ever formal interview at MBS, dont think I'll get the job but it's a good experience teehee! And loads of love to xueying for accompanying me <3
Oh in the morning le guy also came to my house, we just chilled, ate wanton mee and talked but it just felt nice <3
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anyway, met Charlynn at Paya Lebar and we trained & bused to Aloha Loyang! damn, I'm too used to calling her Liying it took me awhile to call her Charlynn but still, I tried.
Reached the bungalow at around 8 and chatted with Sheena, who was the only one there. The rest all went to the beach for some games. When they came back, we were supposed to go with our groups and I was tres awkward when I first met my group cause they've already met and spent time with each other for like half the day but I was a newcomer. Damn worried and they didn't even seem to like me at first :-(
Oh well, tried my best to talk to the girls and it was alright after that! :-)
uhhhhhhh we had this activity of going into another bungalow to pick up ice cream sticks and that's all I could remember of the day since it was kinda unmemorable apart from the horrible awkwardness. Yeah but I was so relieved that we became un-awkward LOL.
I mean, we had to spend 2 more days together so............. no awkwardness would definitely help.
Then we all went back to the room and slept :-) shared the bed with Grace & Gwen while the guys slept on the floor HAHAHA poor things they were so envious that we could sleep on the bed. Frankly speaking I hated the bed.......
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The next day, we woke up to PT and it ain't bad. I actually liked the feeling of exercising omg have I changed for the better? I shall try jogging and going to the gym real soon!
we had breakfast of bread and it was supposed to be the "worst" breakfast (the game results determined our breakfast) but we all thought it was much nicer than the others LOL.
Then we went out for amazing race. which was just travelling all around pasir ris. It was kinda boring sometimes cause it was just nearby LOL but oh well, still fun :-)
with Grace!
Tbh I don't really remember much so I shall skip the activities! Just know that I had $4 korean chicken hotplate and also went fishing and I'll not go again, the fishes looked like they were in agony omg. And......... the guys did a real funny harlem shake for our video and uhhhhhhhh Grace and I sucked at bowling.
LOL. And I like face paint HAHAHA
went back to the chalet to slack then we had BBQ which I think I ate half a hotdog, one corn cob and 3 spoonfuls of fried rice. Chalets and camps are the best time for me to diet lol.
But I'm real glad that I could just meet Syaza (GG subgroup 5!) since we haven't seen each other for AGES.
and I'm also real glad to meet Gwen and Grace they are so pretty
omg I am extremely jealous but they're so sweet as well omg life ain't fair at all.
oh well! Bathed and had a long briefing about BAOC prep. Damnit it takes up too much of our time I ain't sure if I can make it for every session...... and the "important dates" are......... extremely unfortunate for me cause 2 of them falls on the day before my birthday and my birthday itself. Like seriously :-( sighpie.
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OH but ytd was real fun cause Charlynn and I actually spent the night tgt just...... sleeping. SERIOUSLY everyone was up and we were in our room and we said tat we were just resting for like 15 mins but you know, we obviously fell asleep...... (Losers sia seriously HAHAHA) but it was such a good sleep <333
LOL I remember that a group of guys came into the room to ask for the bungalow keys (was it Bryan and Lester omg I have no idea but it was damn embarrassing cause we were sleeping like pigs......) and Charlynn slept on the keys so....... I literally rolled her over and grabbed the keys HAHAHAHA OMG.
then I also remember how she tossed and turned so damn loudly omg.
and also that this guy came into the room and slept on the floor and finally I identified him as Jiajun LOL seriously everyone just went MIA it's a miracle that he came back.
oh well.....
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Third day has been nothing but a bore cause we just woke up, packed, took photos and went home.
Everyone left at different timings so yeah.
and I crashed after eating loads of rubbish for like.......... 4 hours.
okay the end.
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gg out for brunch with le bff (wxy) and then imma go for another interview (DONT JUDGE ME I AM INDEED DESPERATE HAHA) andddddddd gonna meet le guy for dinner and desserts I think teehee.
Oh well, goodbye everyone enjoy the holidays they are gonna fly past in the blink of an eye,
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OH BTW. went out with polly and huixin but I'll blog like ltr or later cause Im lazy yo.
xoxo.
Monday, 25 February 2013
Time stopper
I am starving.
seriously, my stomach is grumbling so damn loudly can I be even more embarrassed HAHAHA.
stuck in school cause I had to go to bishan in the morning to meet laava for her student ID, then bused back to school to activate the student IDs and ow I'm waiting for Polly & Huixin hahaha :D
since my phone is low on battery, I have no choice but to use the computers in the library.
Oh well.
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OSLT BBQ was actually not that bad ytd! :-) It wasn't as awkward as I thought it would be. I mean, cliques are inevitable so yeah. I should probably get used to this since the exco & leaders committee would be real similar, cliques everywhere hahaha.
And finally they told me that I am in charge of finance. Like I didn't guess it lol. Though it ain't my preferred choice I shall just accept it and see how it goes! :-) fingers crossed, it'll be fun. Fat hope haha.
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Okay, so I'm most probably going to another interview right after I finish this blog post. Oh did I mention how crazy I have been in looking for a job? I swear I am mad lol I think I've sent 10++ emails to apply for jobs and also went for........like 3 interviews with 2 more coming up. I need money luh :-( But then again, who doesnt?
okay bye lovelies have a lovely monday and beat the monday blues alright <3
seriously, my stomach is grumbling so damn loudly can I be even more embarrassed HAHAHA.
stuck in school cause I had to go to bishan in the morning to meet laava for her student ID, then bused back to school to activate the student IDs and ow I'm waiting for Polly & Huixin hahaha :D
since my phone is low on battery, I have no choice but to use the computers in the library.
Oh well.
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OSLT BBQ was actually not that bad ytd! :-) It wasn't as awkward as I thought it would be. I mean, cliques are inevitable so yeah. I should probably get used to this since the exco & leaders committee would be real similar, cliques everywhere hahaha.
And finally they told me that I am in charge of finance. Like I didn't guess it lol. Though it ain't my preferred choice I shall just accept it and see how it goes! :-) fingers crossed, it'll be fun. Fat hope haha.
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Okay, so I'm most probably going to another interview right after I finish this blog post. Oh did I mention how crazy I have been in looking for a job? I swear I am mad lol I think I've sent 10++ emails to apply for jobs and also went for........like 3 interviews with 2 more coming up. I need money luh :-( But then again, who doesnt?
okay bye lovelies have a lovely monday and beat the monday blues alright <3
Friday, 22 February 2013
fly across the globe
SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO IT'S THE END OF EXAMS BABY!
I am really happy but somehow I didn't feel excited when I was released from the examination hall ytd at 11am...........
But oh well, I can't imagine 2 months of not studying LOL so damn awesome.
went out today :-)
Job interview at candy empire and I hope I can get the job (fingers crossed)
Then I walked around vivocity for the longest time ever to buy stuff since I was sort of visiting for the first time and I couldn't go empty handed!
But ugh, me and my indecisive mind just couldnt let me make up my mind LOL.
finally bought some awfully chocolates (which taste pretty good!) and gummies and trained to wherever I had to go. Or so I thought.
I alighted and looked around: why does this place look so unfamiliar?
AND I realized that I have went to the wrong place. I was supposed to go to Potong Pasir, NOT Pasir Panjang OMG. I swear I am a genius.
Finally reached Potong Pasir after a long train ride and met him :-)
Went to his house for a bit to rest cause I was too damn tired lol!
Then we went to Nex to catch a movie but ABTM 2 was already sold out :-( We caught upside down in the end. Kinda boring but it was interesting in a way!
after movies we went to Danro for dinner, which I really have been looking forward to BUT was kinda disappointed.
The soup was really good, I especially loooooooooooove the chicken & milk broth and the spicy chicken broth was not bad too! But the food variety was kinda miserable :-(
If only there would be more variety of food, then that would be perfect!
Oh well, at least we had a lovely time just chilin' and eating hehehe!
OH and the soft serve ice cream was actually another highlight of the whole dinner cause it was subtly milky and sweet, not overpowering at all! <3
after our super filling dinner we decided to walk back to potong pasir and it was really nice to just walk and talk about nothing and everything :-)
okay that's about all. LOL anti climax siol.
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so tomorrow Im gonna just stay at home and slack like a potato cause that's the only day that I'm not gonna go out! I think im just gonna wake up late, eat brunch and watch shows on my laptop. Enjoying holidays yo ;-)
and we're gonna go watch abtm2 on saturday (HOPE THERE WOULD BE TICKETS LOL) andddddddddddd I can't wait!
Holidays are gonna be real fun hehehe alright xoxo <3
ps: I'm looking for my mom's credit card cause I just saw this gelato offer online AND I WANNA GET IT but I can't find her card :-( oh well.
I am really happy but somehow I didn't feel excited when I was released from the examination hall ytd at 11am...........
But oh well, I can't imagine 2 months of not studying LOL so damn awesome.
went out today :-)
Job interview at candy empire and I hope I can get the job (fingers crossed)
Then I walked around vivocity for the longest time ever to buy stuff since I was sort of visiting for the first time and I couldn't go empty handed!
But ugh, me and my indecisive mind just couldnt let me make up my mind LOL.
finally bought some awfully chocolates (which taste pretty good!) and gummies and trained to wherever I had to go. Or so I thought.
I alighted and looked around: why does this place look so unfamiliar?
AND I realized that I have went to the wrong place. I was supposed to go to Potong Pasir, NOT Pasir Panjang OMG. I swear I am a genius.
Finally reached Potong Pasir after a long train ride and met him :-)
Went to his house for a bit to rest cause I was too damn tired lol!
Then we went to Nex to catch a movie but ABTM 2 was already sold out :-( We caught upside down in the end. Kinda boring but it was interesting in a way!
after movies we went to Danro for dinner, which I really have been looking forward to BUT was kinda disappointed.
The soup was really good, I especially loooooooooooove the chicken & milk broth and the spicy chicken broth was not bad too! But the food variety was kinda miserable :-(
If only there would be more variety of food, then that would be perfect!
Oh well, at least we had a lovely time just chilin' and eating hehehe!
OH and the soft serve ice cream was actually another highlight of the whole dinner cause it was subtly milky and sweet, not overpowering at all! <3
after our super filling dinner we decided to walk back to potong pasir and it was really nice to just walk and talk about nothing and everything :-)
okay that's about all. LOL anti climax siol.
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so tomorrow Im gonna just stay at home and slack like a potato cause that's the only day that I'm not gonna go out! I think im just gonna wake up late, eat brunch and watch shows on my laptop. Enjoying holidays yo ;-)
and we're gonna go watch abtm2 on saturday (HOPE THERE WOULD BE TICKETS LOL) andddddddddddd I can't wait!
Holidays are gonna be real fun hehehe alright xoxo <3
ps: I'm looking for my mom's credit card cause I just saw this gelato offer online AND I WANNA GET IT but I can't find her card :-( oh well.
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