Late night thoughts

I've always been afraid,

Yet I've always locked that fear deep inside me. 

I told myself that I had to be strong, 

That everything happens for a reason. 

But somehow, tonight I can't seem to convince myself 

That everything would be alright. 

Fate seems to be playing games with me, and frankly I'm tired.

Tired of feeling all the pain, 

Tired of my heart weighing a ton. 

Wishing that hopefully, all my worries would vanish into thin air.

And that I can finally breathe again. 

Ashes

So hey guys. School has been kinda horrible and I really miss work. Oh well, I'm sure it'll get better real soon (I HOPE OMG). 

In the meanwhile, here's some photos of my last day in Fullerton & also when I visited them last week. I wonder why I miss them so much. 

And my last time returning to my 娘家。

With my FAV 师傅。the first person I actually met in housekeeping and I always told everyone that he would be the dream husband that every girl wanted (but sadly would never get). 

So yeah. Looking back, it made me realize how much fun I had, and how the room attendants actually made such a huge difference in my life. I would never had survived without them, and I am extremely grateful.

 I really am. 

Shopping with the colleagues! 

And a farewell dinner with 姐姐 before she flies back home! 

With the bae <3

And he had a new haircut! So cute ( ^ω^ )

I do hope that I can find my happy potion in school cause I'm miserable as hell. 

Xoxo. 

结束

昨天，我结束了在Fullerton七个多月的旅程。
结束的好不完美哦。
有时，我会想，最后一天时，大家会想我吗？会舍不得吗？
结果，结束得太快了。好失望，好难过，也有点绝望。
算了吧。把烦恼都忘了。

bittersweet

It's my last day at work today, and I'm dreading it like crazy.
can't imagine leaving the place I call my second home and not coming back forever.
Oh well, parting has always been such sweet sorrow.

I cant believe that September just flew past.

I haven't even gotten the chance to blog about anything and its so surprising how fast time flies.
It's October and soon work will really end for me & it's back to school.
Odd, but I seemed to have dedicated a piece of my heart at The Fullerton Hotel. 7 months at this place has really made me feel a part of the hotel. All the people are amazing, and it has been the best time of my life working at somewhere that made me feel so loved and welcome.
Damn, I don't wanna leave. Really.

But I don't exactly have a choice so yeah.

Oh, and I'm leaving for BKK tmr morning (literally tonight tbh) and it's kinda exciting but I can't really be bothered LOL apart from buying loads of stuff (THAT I AM EXCITEDDDDDDD).

I'm really gonna shop like crazy and it'll be so damn fun since the last time I went to BKK was like 12 years ago HAHAHA.

.

Recently something's kinda wrong with me. I'm so cranky, so vulnerable, so lonely, so happy, so emotional.
I wonder why.

never dive in too deep.

Was gonna go for a jog today, but it just rained so heavily. oh well, destined to be a fat pig for life.
REALLY REALLY DETERMINED TO STOP ALL SNACKING AND EAT LESS AND DRINK MORE WATER AND LOSE SOME WEIGHT.
Like seriously, one jiggle on my arms can shake a nation I tell you.

anyway, ytd was my sister's graduation and I'm so proud of her! tho I was a sulky pig cuz I was damn tired sia.

(cant help but stare at my arm and shudder. its that bad pls)

okay bye.

where did everyone go

HEY GUYS omg I have never had any time to just sit down to blog at all. everyday has been a constant cycle of work and sleep. SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO DAMN BORING.
It's like I don't have a life anymore and I JUST CANT WAIT FOR INTERNSHIP TO END. I mean it has been really enriching but still I have been so stressed from work everyday I need a long break from all these responsibilities you know? THREE MORE WEEKS GUYS OMG. Tho I'm still gg back to hkp for like a month for part time heh but that's earning $$$ so I don't mind!

Anyway ytd was our company's D&D and also my first ever D&D!

heh it wasn't like mind-blowing and I didn't even take much photos but it was still kinda fun! Seeing everyone dressing up and having fun was just so different from seeing them at work.

Tho for some reason, I felt kinda out of place sitting with the HKP people. It felt like i WAS part of the family but now I'm just an outsider. Oh well........

So it's my off day and I'm just sitting at home chilling. AND IM DAMN BORED. I wanna go out and have fun but there's nowhere to go.....

out for dinner with the family & friends

selfie while checking rooms.

with anati after submitting our burden reports! YAYYYYYYY!

OKAY what should I do now.......... ttyl guys ciao.