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I hate it when I think too much.
I hate it when this one thing is constantly on my mind.
I hate the constant battle to forget about it.
That feeling you get when you realize that you're the only one who thinks about it, who worries about it, who actually thinks it matters.
You try to block out of your head, you try to force it out of your mind.
maybe you try to think about something else, or make yourself do something so that you'll not remember it. but you realize something.
You just couldn't forget it. It stays on your mind, fixed like glue.
you'll feel like crap. I mean, why worry and fret over something that no one cares about?
why should it weigh so heavily on your heart when no one gives it a second glance?
why hold onto something so preciously when it's nothing but...... thin air?




I have no idea why I care so much, but I just do. Maybe a little too much.
I need to learn to cast my heart to stone, to make myself cold as ice.
This way, I won't be hurt easily.


当你发现大家都不在乎，只有你自己一个人把事情放的这么重要时，那股孤单和无奈是无法形容的。明明告诉自己不要想太多，不要再让自己心烦了，但是心还是不听使唤。
这就是真心吧？脆弱，可悲，但又最美丽的真心。

take a break from projects

so............................. I should be preparing for the line of presentations lined up for me from tomorrow to wednesday, but I'm just too distracted so I shall give myself my 100th break for the day and just blog!
this blogpost would just be a overdue one (last friday!)

here we go. pardon me if it's very boring, I am indeed very very bored and I do have a boring like hell life :(

Went to school early cause I needed to meet my LLM project groupmates :D
I'm always going to school early even though I start lessons at 3pm! #sad




I got a teriyaki chicken sandwich at the bakery in NP and it's supposed to be REALLY yummy but this disappointed me cause it wasn't that nice :(
guess the morning crowd does affect food quality......... oh well, shall go buy this again next time, when there's less people!


supposed to be taking a shot of my iced tea but here we have casia photobombing my iced tea HAHAHA



SEE? hahaha!


my attas waterbottle and the messy table. we were at ourspace, aka freezer cause it's just so bloody cold!


funny classmates, Felicia, Lynette & Casia

Then I met my CQ groupmates for our CQ project & we discussed our project, like duh
I realised that I'm really damn indecisive when it comes to buying food, I just can't make up my mind!


gummies we bought for CQ class, we need all the sugar we need yo!


passed them around to the class since everyone loves gummies! <3
& headed to town with Xiaomin & Anati after lessons! We were supposed to go to ikea for our project, but changed our minds last minute since we wanted to go shopping! :D
got my paycheck and walked around town.
TOWN IS CRAZILY CROWDED DURING WEEKENDS ZZZZZZZZZZZ
didn't even buy anything :(


everyone was tired so we went to pastamania for dinner!


Anati's spaghetti bolognese


I was so thrilled when I saw their kid's menu so I ordered it!
YAY!no age restrictions for kids meals = the best



It was damn filling, with a mini plate of chicken sausage spaghetti, garlic bread and minute maid juice! FOR $8 it was so damn cheap ZOMG



xiaomin's clam spaghetti!

and we did the typical singaporean thing: taking photos with our food ;D



my photo was taken at an unflattering angle so I shall not upload it ;D


GARLIC BREAD NOMZ


AND I CAN HAVE CHEESE STICKS OMNOMNOMNOM I LOVE THEMMMMMM!


the receipt hahaha!
after dinner we went to the wonderstellar sales at orchard central. didn't buy anything..... :(
xiaomin & anati left before me cause anati had to rush home before curfew :(
so empty handed, I trained home.

that's it! will blog and post up all my ndp photos really soon! ENOUGH OF BREAKS, TIME TO GET SERIOUS AND STUDY. CIAO/

ps: I really want holidays to come...
pps: not ready for exams though....
ppps: I WANT CHALET DURING HOLS........!
ppps: so vexed right now grrrrrrr bye.

set your lies on flames.

SUP PEOPLE!
hahaha had a fun day yo and since it's the weekends, I shall allow myself to slack and blog!

Actually I find it so damn annoying, cause I actually have lessons from 3-5pm on fridays, BUT I think I have only went to school late since school started........ And all the time it's to complete projects. Damnnnnnnn.
but okay, moving on, bused to school and met Sandy & Polly! took a random photo before we left for classes.


Then I walked over to the library and we started on our project, etc etc. IT WAS DAMN BORING cause I was worrying about my SQTR+ITR project...... I'm still worrying abt it now actually. Argh I don't care!
so....... projects, lunch at blk 56 (we tapao-ed) & CQ lessons!
we did our cq presentation pretty slipshod and got a B. Not bad hahaha I didn't expect much :D



- with Xiaomin, my CQ groupmate <3

after lessons, I met up with LiYing (or should I call her Charlynn) for the BApphire dinner @ munch.
since we didn't know many ppl, it was really kinda awkward. The most fun part was when we were leaving and they were all enthusiastic towards us LOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL laughed like crazy with liying then <3
Went to Island Creamery (like finally!!) at KAP.


she got watermelon sherbet and banana ice cream



LIYING <3333



while I got the brownie with a scoop of nutella ice cream. WANTED APPLE PIE SO BAD but they ran out of it :(


We just spent some time chatting and laughing over random stuff. Oh and plotting about how we were gonna get the island creamery stickers from the staff cause we wanted them so much LOL!
but they ran out of it too :( sighs

camwhored with liying since that's what I love to do:













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I realized that I felt so damn comfortable talking to Liying. Miss her so much omg hope she's from TRM yo hahaha!But it's okay, fellow BApphires can still meetup! <3


- asked the staff to help us snap a shot hahaha :D

then after finishing our food we went home~ that's the end of my day!

NDP practice tmr: N.E show 2! HOPE IT'LL BE FUN cause last week was bloody boring!
alright, should sleep soon since I am feeling drowsy. Goodnight world have the best weekend ever <3
xoxo.