ridiculous

so i haven't blogged since FOREVER and I'm terribly sorry (tho no one reads my blog ever cause is damn dead).
BUT I have been crazy busy, last sem of poly is no joke like seriously I hate school every single minute.
Okay tbh it's not that bad sometimes cause of friends and stuff but still assignments are killing everyone.
Common tests are in a few day's time and guess who has not started a single shit yet?

ANYWAY, since I'm so goddamn busy why am I even blogging.
Cause the most ridiculous thing happened to me just 5 minutes ago.

So I have weird bug bites that turn into bruises recently and they're all over me. 

I visited the doctors and he told me typical GP shit and told me to sun my mattress and stuff.

(That's why I'm not at lectures anyway)

Anyway, since it was damn sunny I decided to sun my comforter! And I love my comforter cause the boy bought it for me so it kinda feels special. Just when I went t get a glass of water I SUDDENLY REALIZE THE STUPID COMFORTER WAS MISSING LIKE WTH.

Of course I ran to my window and lol I seriously rolled my eyes when I saw that it flew to someone's clothes hanger SIGH.

ran down to level 3 and the lady was so nice but we couldnt get it back, so I told her to poke at it till it drops to ground level.

AND when I reach ground floor the comforter flew to the clothes hanger one storey down so I had to run to level 2 again and run back down.

But luckily I got it back!!!

BUT YOU'RE SUCH AN ASS I ALMOST DIED OF A HEART ATTACK

But you'll always be my one true love cause you're the perfect background for my instagram photos!

KBYE HAHAHAHAHA

Late night thoughts

I've always been afraid,

Yet I've always locked that fear deep inside me. 

I told myself that I had to be strong, 

That everything happens for a reason. 

But somehow, tonight I can't seem to convince myself 

That everything would be alright. 

Fate seems to be playing games with me, and frankly I'm tired.

Tired of feeling all the pain, 

Tired of my heart weighing a ton. 

Wishing that hopefully, all my worries would vanish into thin air.

And that I can finally breathe again. 

Ashes

So hey guys. School has been kinda horrible and I really miss work. Oh well, I'm sure it'll get better real soon (I HOPE OMG). 

In the meanwhile, here's some photos of my last day in Fullerton & also when I visited them last week. I wonder why I miss them so much. 

And my last time returning to my 娘家。

With my FAV 师傅。the first person I actually met in housekeeping and I always told everyone that he would be the dream husband that every girl wanted (but sadly would never get). 

So yeah. Looking back, it made me realize how much fun I had, and how the room attendants actually made such a huge difference in my life. I would never had survived without them, and I am extremely grateful.

 I really am. 

Shopping with the colleagues! 

And a farewell dinner with 姐姐 before she flies back home! 

With the bae <3

And he had a new haircut! So cute ( ^ω^ )

I do hope that I can find my happy potion in school cause I'm miserable as hell. 

Xoxo. 

结束

昨天，我结束了在Fullerton七个多月的旅程。
结束的好不完美哦。
有时，我会想，最后一天时，大家会想我吗？会舍不得吗？
结果，结束得太快了。好失望，好难过，也有点绝望。
算了吧。把烦恼都忘了。

bittersweet

It's my last day at work today, and I'm dreading it like crazy.
can't imagine leaving the place I call my second home and not coming back forever.
Oh well, parting has always been such sweet sorrow.

I cant believe that September just flew past.

I haven't even gotten the chance to blog about anything and its so surprising how fast time flies.
It's October and soon work will really end for me & it's back to school.
Odd, but I seemed to have dedicated a piece of my heart at The Fullerton Hotel. 7 months at this place has really made me feel a part of the hotel. All the people are amazing, and it has been the best time of my life working at somewhere that made me feel so loved and welcome.
Damn, I don't wanna leave. Really.

But I don't exactly have a choice so yeah.

Oh, and I'm leaving for BKK tmr morning (literally tonight tbh) and it's kinda exciting but I can't really be bothered LOL apart from buying loads of stuff (THAT I AM EXCITEDDDDDDD).

I'm really gonna shop like crazy and it'll be so damn fun since the last time I went to BKK was like 12 years ago HAHAHA.

.

Recently something's kinda wrong with me. I'm so cranky, so vulnerable, so lonely, so happy, so emotional.
I wonder why.

never dive in too deep.

Was gonna go for a jog today, but it just rained so heavily. oh well, destined to be a fat pig for life.
REALLY REALLY DETERMINED TO STOP ALL SNACKING AND EAT LESS AND DRINK MORE WATER AND LOSE SOME WEIGHT.
Like seriously, one jiggle on my arms can shake a nation I tell you.

anyway, ytd was my sister's graduation and I'm so proud of her! tho I was a sulky pig cuz I was damn tired sia.

(cant help but stare at my arm and shudder. its that bad pls)

okay bye.