ridiculous

so i haven't blogged since FOREVER and I'm terribly sorry (tho no one reads my blog ever cause is damn dead).
BUT I have been crazy busy, last sem of poly is no joke like seriously I hate school every single minute.
Okay tbh it's not that bad sometimes cause of friends and stuff but still assignments are killing everyone.
Common tests are in a few day's time and guess who has not started a single shit yet?

ANYWAY, since I'm so goddamn busy why am I even blogging.
Cause the most ridiculous thing happened to me just 5 minutes ago.

So I have weird bug bites that turn into bruises recently and they're all over me. 

I visited the doctors and he told me typical GP shit and told me to sun my mattress and stuff.

(That's why I'm not at lectures anyway)

Anyway, since it was damn sunny I decided to sun my comforter! And I love my comforter cause the boy bought it for me so it kinda feels special. Just when I went t get a glass of water I SUDDENLY REALIZE THE STUPID COMFORTER WAS MISSING LIKE WTH.

Of course I ran to my window and lol I seriously rolled my eyes when I saw that it flew to someone's clothes hanger SIGH.

ran down to level 3 and the lady was so nice but we couldnt get it back, so I told her to poke at it till it drops to ground level.

AND when I reach ground floor the comforter flew to the clothes hanger one storey down so I had to run to level 2 again and run back down.

But luckily I got it back!!!

BUT YOU'RE SUCH AN ASS I ALMOST DIED OF A HEART ATTACK

But you'll always be my one true love cause you're the perfect background for my instagram photos!

KBYE HAHAHAHAHA

Late night thoughts

I've always been afraid,

Yet I've always locked that fear deep inside me. 

I told myself that I had to be strong, 

That everything happens for a reason. 

But somehow, tonight I can't seem to convince myself 

That everything would be alright. 

Fate seems to be playing games with me, and frankly I'm tired.

Tired of feeling all the pain, 

Tired of my heart weighing a ton. 

Wishing that hopefully, all my worries would vanish into thin air.

And that I can finally breathe again. 

Ashes

So hey guys. School has been kinda horrible and I really miss work. Oh well, I'm sure it'll get better real soon (I HOPE OMG). 

In the meanwhile, here's some photos of my last day in Fullerton & also when I visited them last week. I wonder why I miss them so much. 

And my last time returning to my 娘家。

With my FAV 师傅。the first person I actually met in housekeeping and I always told everyone that he would be the dream husband that every girl wanted (but sadly would never get). 

So yeah. Looking back, it made me realize how much fun I had, and how the room attendants actually made such a huge difference in my life. I would never had survived without them, and I am extremely grateful.

 I really am. 

Shopping with the colleagues! 

And a farewell dinner with 姐姐 before she flies back home! 

With the bae <3

And he had a new haircut! So cute ( ^ω^ )

I do hope that I can find my happy potion in school cause I'm miserable as hell. 

Xoxo. 

结束

昨天，我结束了在Fullerton七个多月的旅程。
结束的好不完美哦。
有时，我会想，最后一天时，大家会想我吗？会舍不得吗？
结果，结束得太快了。好失望，好难过，也有点绝望。
算了吧。把烦恼都忘了。

bittersweet

It's my last day at work today, and I'm dreading it like crazy.
can't imagine leaving the place I call my second home and not coming back forever.
Oh well, parting has always been such sweet sorrow.

I cant believe that September just flew past.

I haven't even gotten the chance to blog about anything and its so surprising how fast time flies.
It's October and soon work will really end for me & it's back to school.
Odd, but I seemed to have dedicated a piece of my heart at The Fullerton Hotel. 7 months at this place has really made me feel a part of the hotel. All the people are amazing, and it has been the best time of my life working at somewhere that made me feel so loved and welcome.
Damn, I don't wanna leave. Really.

But I don't exactly have a choice so yeah.

Oh, and I'm leaving for BKK tmr morning (literally tonight tbh) and it's kinda exciting but I can't really be bothered LOL apart from buying loads of stuff (THAT I AM EXCITEDDDDDDD).

I'm really gonna shop like crazy and it'll be so damn fun since the last time I went to BKK was like 12 years ago HAHAHA.

.

Recently something's kinda wrong with me. I'm so cranky, so vulnerable, so lonely, so happy, so emotional.
I wonder why.

never dive in too deep.

Was gonna go for a jog today, but it just rained so heavily. oh well, destined to be a fat pig for life.
REALLY REALLY DETERMINED TO STOP ALL SNACKING AND EAT LESS AND DRINK MORE WATER AND LOSE SOME WEIGHT.
Like seriously, one jiggle on my arms can shake a nation I tell you.

anyway, ytd was my sister's graduation and I'm so proud of her! tho I was a sulky pig cuz I was damn tired sia.

(cant help but stare at my arm and shudder. its that bad pls)

okay bye.

where did everyone go

HEY GUYS omg I have never had any time to just sit down to blog at all. everyday has been a constant cycle of work and sleep. SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO DAMN BORING.
It's like I don't have a life anymore and I JUST CANT WAIT FOR INTERNSHIP TO END. I mean it has been really enriching but still I have been so stressed from work everyday I need a long break from all these responsibilities you know? THREE MORE WEEKS GUYS OMG. Tho I'm still gg back to hkp for like a month for part time heh but that's earning $$$ so I don't mind!

Anyway ytd was our company's D&D and also my first ever D&D!

heh it wasn't like mind-blowing and I didn't even take much photos but it was still kinda fun! Seeing everyone dressing up and having fun was just so different from seeing them at work.

Tho for some reason, I felt kinda out of place sitting with the HKP people. It felt like i WAS part of the family but now I'm just an outsider. Oh well........

So it's my off day and I'm just sitting at home chilling. AND IM DAMN BORED. I wanna go out and have fun but there's nowhere to go.....

out for dinner with the family & friends

selfie while checking rooms.

with anati after submitting our burden reports! YAYYYYYYY!

OKAY what should I do now.......... ttyl guys ciao.

Rainy days

I love them. 

The smell of the rain, the feeling of light droplets touching your skin, the little melody it makes as it lands on your umbrella. 

It makes me wanna just leave everything behind and just stare out into nothing. 

Ps: bringing my new baby out with me! 

Xoxo, Amanda. (Promising myself to lose the 2-3kg I've gained and also to blog real soon!) 

klutz

so I actually did the dumbest thing last Saturday,
I was showing this guest to diff rooms cause he couldn't make up his mind (wts) just when we were almost gonna head home.
And at the final room which had a small but steep flight of stairs, I actually lost my balance, rolled down the stairs, twisting my ankle and torn a bit of my ligament LOL.
it was swollen like a balloon and it was so painful the wind in my lungs got knocked out for a long while and I had to sit on the floor, gasping like a goldfish out of water.
All the time the guest was with me in the room. LOL DAMN AWKWARD, he was terribly sorry for causing me to fall (cause hes so troublesome) but terribly nice for helping me up and telling me to take my time to hobble back to the lobby with him, always giving me a helping hand.
LUCKILY I GOT A NICE GUEST THERE. Some guests would complain that I was unprofessional I just know it.
struggled back to the lobby, went home early (without much sympathy from anyone apart from my housekeeping colleague. Figures.) and cabbed home.

the next day: doctors, MC, and chinese sinseh session that ended with loads of tears.
till now I can't walk properly and I'm so worried my long MC would affect my grading. sigh.

BUT the main purpose of this blogpost was because through this incident I realize the ones that really cared about me and loved me so much,
My parents were so so worried and cared for me like I am a princess, not allowing me to walk around too much, applying medicine for me at 5am, bringing me to the doctors and researching for the best sinsehs to visit.
My sister actually instructed me not to walk about and helped me grab everything I needed, and every night she would ask if I was alright.
and KX spent his entire day with me ytd, even tho I acted like the most spoilt brat and demanded him to do this and that, he did it with no complaints and I think I might just be the luckiest girl ever.

kbye, still contemplating whether I should go to work tmr. I mean, its healing but I still can't walk normally. let alone in heels...... OH SIGHPIE LIFE'S TOUGH.

truth

Recently, I've been feeling pretty damn bad.
It's like my soul's a little lost, not knowing where to find my bearings in life. I feel really lost, really helpless, really down.
Work hasn't been exactly kind to me, I feel like a constant fool and it's a struggle to muster a real smile on my face every single day. Only when work has really ended would I finally heave a sigh of relief and feel pure joy of not having to feel like a worthless and lonely fool.
It's like a constant battle. A battle fought with only me by my side. I always try to stay positive, telling myself that tomorrow's gonna be a better day, yet deep down inside I know that's nothing but a lie.
I was hoping that the people would be nice, patient and kind, yet their stares feel like icicles in my heart and I'm constantly worrying of offending them. They always asked me why I was so unsure of myself, why did I seem so unhappy. Truth is, I don't know.

My mind is a whirlwind of confusion.

That's why I'm constantly disappearing, always hiding in the warmth and comfort of the hkp office, where I know I'm in control and everyone cares about one another.
I should be trying to bond with the FO people, yet somehow it's tough. So tough when no one seems to be true.
Right now, I don't know what I should do.

Luckily I know I'll always have my boy to depend on.
God knows how I'll do without him, he's just like my anchor, the one constant in my life.

So much emotions running through me today.
Goodnight, let's hope tomorrow would be a better day.

XOXO.

way too deep

Back to blogging on a random monday off work.

Absolutely hating work just cuz I really do not enjoy front office. sighpie.

oh well. Have been going back to housekeeping for some OT and yay can't wait for my $$$$$$$$! 

anyway, the boy is sitting right beside me on his laptop, trying to tabulate some results from his projects HAHAHA IM SO GLAD IM NOT STUDYING NOW.

--> random (extremely late updates)

1) Japanese food with momma!

2) FINALLY TRIED THELEGENDARY SHIOK MAKI with the sister and it was kinda..... nice but not like WOAH THIS IS CRAZY GOOD. a little underwhelming

3) selfies with the housekeeping family

So I really learnt so much at housekeeping. Apart from lots of complaints from work and also feelings of desperation at times, I have never regretted joining housekeeping it may be the most memorable job that I've ever gotten just because the people here are amazing.

ciao.

4) with my bb! he absolutely loves wearing formal and he looks so cute in formal wear pls.

5) happy birthday giraffe <3

baked him a really tiny strawberry shortcake which failed miserably but he still loved it so much, such a sweetheart ❤❤❤

then we went out for dinz at poulet cause the boring boy wanted to eat it HAHAHA.

Food wasnt fantastic tho.

but whatever the company was all that mattered ❤❤❤❤❤

can't wait to celebrate all our special days together. 

always knew how lucky I am! :')

okay not even gonna label the photos alr cause they're just too random hahaha

 

last day of freedom before FO.

santouka ramen! pork belly is YUMMY PLS.

selfie with the workmates! went steamboating with them at their house and we really had fun hehehe.

said goodbye to cindy & viola who also went back home :-(

6) JB DAY OUT

we headed to JB last sunday right after my pm shift and I was nothing but lazy and tired.

But oh well, off to JB we go! love collecting chops for my passport ;-)

cabbed to KSL and we went to grab some breakfast!

the queue was kinda long it was real crowded and stuffy!

bak kut teh but it felt like some mushroom soup! still yummy!

aiyu with lime juice, so refreshing pls

after that we shopped and bough close to nth and cabbed back to city plaza or whatever its called

humble beginnings for their famous crepe cakes but it was kinda meh. too sweet for my liking

and since shopping was so boring we gave up and headed to this place for some korean BBQ!

Japchae and it was the best thing on the table nomz.

waiting for a cab back to city plaza HAHAHA check out my sister's grumpy face

finally went for some desserts at 許留山 but the staff was such a bitch and the desserts sucked anyway.

headed home after that HAHAHA and the jam was HORRIBLE we waited for i think 2 hours plus for the bus. yay. 

But it was a happy day lah cause we got to explore jb and it really was a good break from work ;-)

OK BLOG MORE LATER TOO LAZY